So it’s officially 18 days until The Day but I’m not really worried — I want to get it over with. I’ve become ‘angry’ at the competition, if that makes any sense. I resent it for disrupting my life, costing me money, causing added stress I don’t need, etc. Last week I didn’t work out at all and I think I used these feelings as an excuse not to go to the gym (oh yeah, and I was dead tired).

So today I got back in the gym to work my abs and legs… and they’re still burning. A little extra punishment for staying away so long I guess.

Then I got an email from the founder and president of Fitness Star saying that STUDIO-H has offered to do hair and make-up for free for all the competitors! I signed up to take the offer, so I’ve got a little more motivation.

I still have lingering worries about how everything is going to work out, but this past Thursday I got the chance to browse the latest issue of Oprah magazine while getting my hair done. After reading Martha Beck’s article on ‘Just-in-Case’ vs. ‘Just-in-time’ thinking got me thinking I really can relax… I just have to remember that first.